Yesterday was an event. I woke up miserable after a very restless night. Headache skyrocketed. Sedated that only worked for 3 hours. First threshold. Let’s try new med. Injected and within 30 seconds my heart seized. Not the seize of a set of lips on your throat seize but a life threatening one. Heart rate dropped to 60. My normal is 80. Respirations 8. My normal is 12-20. Bliod pressure 201/107. Not a typo. My head quelled. My heart felt like it was dying. Treatment oxygen, can’t have morphine, can’t have nitrates. Lower BP.was all I heard. Rapid response called. Unable to speak or move. Soaked with sweat. Threshold met.

Today with my oxygen, I watched the sunrise from my perch in my ivory tower. The blessings and peace for another day. The reminder to appreciate life. No threshold met. .